I want to wake up every day with the goal of pouring my heart out to God and His people. I want to be able to live joyfully for these things. I want to learn to say ‘no’ to a lot of things so I can say ‘yes’ to the best things. I’ve said ‘yes’ to almost every opportunity that has presented itself to me in the last 5 years.
This led me to places that range from the Bruins press box to the Miss New Hampshire Stage, which have been incredible experiences. But it’s also led me to sign up to do too many things at the same time and completely overbook my schedule. I’ve always kept myself busy to the point of near madness, under the guise that I work better when I’m under pressure and a little bit stressed. But all this really boils down to is need to be successful in this life and to be fulfilled by things of this world. I put these things that I’m busy with above my relationship with God, because when I do these things well, I win the approval of those around me.
When I'm focused on things of this world as my goal instead of Jesus my daily worship thoughts go like this:
You can have all this world, but give me this internship.
You can have all this world, but give me this relationship.
You can have all this world, but give me an A in this class.
You can have all this world, but get people to come to my bible study.
You can have all this world, but give me this new cell phone.
But my true happiness comes from the truth that's in the lyrics one of my favorite Hymns: You can have all this world, but give me Jesus.
Our God is fighting for us always, but how often are we fighting for Him? Fighting to love Him and put Him above everything else this world has to offer. When it comes down to it, Jesus is the only thing I need. This world isn’t mine. I will be the first to admit that I love my family, friends and my college and other things in this world, but the truth is that it is all nothing in comparison to my relationship with Jesus. That’s how powerful that Christ is. He is our Maker, our Deliverer, our Savior.
I have a restless heart, I jump from activity to activity in my life in the blink of an eye wanting to experience everything this world has to offer. And that’s okay, but it’s important for me to remember that nothing matters in my life apart from God and His will. Francis Chan, who I am so excited to hear speak at Urbana, says it beautiful and simply like this this:
“"Do you know that nothing you do in this life will ever matter, unless it is about loving God and loving the people he has made?”
I have always soaked up every opportunity, but now it’s time to take every chance to fall deeper in love with God and his people. It’s the question I continue to ask myself: Am I willing to give up everything that God might ask of me in order to serve Him and love Him? And the truth is yes, because on even my worst days deep down I trust in the power of His will.
So that's it, that is my prayer, my hope and the truth in my life, you can have all this world, but give me Jesus. He's all I need.