It's Not Too Late

It's every student's favorite time of year – final project time. Every class has one this year, and every project was assigned at least a month ago. Which means that I've had at least a month to work on all of these projects, but have somehow found ways to prioritize other things ahead of them.

Legitimate things, definitely. Important things like sorting out my spring schedule, making time for family, keeping up with chores at home. But the end result is the same – I'm way behind on several very critical projects and end up working overtime against looming deadlines (one of my projects is a snake animation, and this still frame reminds me a lot of a looming deadline).

It's during times like these that I encounter what I can only describe as a deep character flaw that I've struggled with my whole life. When I'm a few days late on a task, I succumb quickly to the idea that it's too late to even try, and I should just give up altogether. The next time I think of it, the feeling is even worse. Many times I've let small tasks spiral into out-of-control disasters by letting this vicious cycle take control of my life. It's definitely happened to me with this blog – after one particularly busy week, I got a little behind, and convinced myself that I hadn’t posted in so long that a few more days wouldn’t make much of a difference. I’ve been telling myself that for at least three weeks now. So tonight I’m forcing myself to sit down, follow Christian’s Tip for Baller Bloggin’, and just write what’s on my heart.

I can see this struggle starting to occur again, but on a much larger scale. This time it's my life that's the deadline, and the Great Commission that's the task. I've known for years that my highest calling in life has been to go and make disciples of all nations. I've been putting it off, though, telling myself that school is the most important thing in my life, or my family, or anything from a long list of legitimate excuses. But the more I make this excuse, the more days slip away without me even thinking about spreading the kingdom. The more I start to tell myself that I’ve invested so much in the career path that the world has put in front of me that I just won’t have any time for missional thinking in my life.

I've known for years that my highest calling in life has been to go and make disciples of all nations. I've been putting it off, though, telling myself that school is the most important thing in my life, or my family, or anything from a long list of legitimate excuses. But the more I make this excuse, the more days slip away without me even thinking about spreading the kingdom. The more I start to tell myself that I’ve invested so much in the career path that the world has put in front of me that I just won’t have any time for missional thinking in my life.

So I’m praying tonight that Urbana will provide a jolt to this cycle of it’s too late so why bother that I’m falling into. I’m hoping that seeing and hearing from real people who do real things every day for the kingdom will help me see and hear that it’s not too late – that it’s never too late – to join the harvest. I’m asking God to help me in this way, and I’m willing myself to have the courage to act in whatever way He tells me to.

And if you’re thinking of coming to Urbana too, but haven’t decided yet, remember this: it’s not too late!

 

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