i am at a place in my life where i think i need to be deciding on a couple things. 1) where should i live 2)who do i date 3)do i go to grad school for my masters 4)if i am truly called into full time missions (how do i know?) and then do i need to go to get my masters in higher education for that? i want to honor God with all i am and just wish i had clearer guidance. i know i am called, and i want to be obedient to his plans for my life, it all just seems like so much right now...
As you face these decisions, Kimberly, I think it would be helpful for you to either have a long talk with your pastor and/or gather some good Christian friends and open your heart to them. Review what you have appreciated most so far in your experience and dream a bit about what you would enjoy doing.
I think the major decision would have to do with what you feel called to do/be. This will depend to a certain extent on what you are doing right now.
- What gives you the greatest joy?
- What need does your heart most respond to?
- When you hear of people doing things, what most attracts your attention?
Put all this before the Lord in prayer. Ask Him to lead and guide you. Once you begin to be drawn into a vision, a goal, or a concrete desire to accomplish something, think about how to put "legs" on this. Then the other things you mentioned will begin to fall into place.
I am including as a postscript part of a testimony I just read today which you may find helpful.
Blessings on you, Kimberly. It may all "seem like so much" right now, but as you deal with the basic question I think you'll find that bit by bit the other questions won't seem so confusing!
In His Grace,
In the year before my graduation from college, in search of some concrete wisdom that would help me figure out what to do with my life, I did a biblical word study on “God’s will”. I was struck in particular by verses from Paul’s letter to the Thessalonians: “Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.”
My conclusion was that instead of asking “What should I do?” I would do better to start with the question “How should I live?” The second question is much less tangible, but in the end it’s the “how,” and not the “what,” that matters more. Character traits such as patience, humility, flexibility, generosity, and love are better qualifications than the skills, diplomas or job responsibilities listed on my résumé.
So I waited on the “what” and worked on the “how”, and in the midst of waiting, God was preparing me; in particular preparing me for all those times when I cry out “What now, God? What are you doing? What do you want me to do?” I continue to ask those questions on a regular basis, hopefully though with less fear than in the past. Sometimes I even manage to enjoy the feeling of the unknown – the expectancy of knowing that God will do something, something which I cannot see or perhaps even imagine in the moment. I wait for God to take me where he wants me to go, to make me who he wants me to be.
"Being Who God Made Me"
by Lucy Wynard (urbana.org)